07 Feb 2007 …

07 Feb 2007

it’s not a cry that you hear at night. It’s not somebody who’s seen the light.

Love is not a victory march….
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…It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah.
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this girl waits for me in the morning with open arms. of course.. when i said i wanted to keep `her, blake says “dude, i can find you a smarter one”

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this is our family photo

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revolution? not on my watch.
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you shouldn´t have favorites.
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03 Feb 2007

uh

209 views today. I don’t even know 209 people. that means some of you are really bored.

see you in a week.

oh yeah.. i almost forgot. it has been pointed out to me that there is a pretty sweet kid chillin in the background of the picture of me and patience. check him out.

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01 Feb 2007

honduras photos

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02 Feb 2007

rumors – details

So.. we are fine. I’ve got a pretty sore back, and Patience has a raging headache.. but yeah.. we’re fine.

For those of you who missed the details…

It turns out that I’m in the states for 3 days.. thursday, friday saturday.. it was somewhat unplanned.. but I’m here. I had planned on just laying low and taking it real easy until I flew out again.. I wasn’t really going to be here, in the states, long enough to really do anything, or see everyone, and what time I would be here I figured I would be working in the office.

Then.. on the way back from the clintonville cup of joe I hear patience yell “Look out!” I turn just in time hit the breaks, smack the car in front of me… airbags deploy.. I see a big dent in the windshield and patience holding her head…

the details are a little fuzzy from there. but at least we got to spend an ungodly amount of time in the hospital.

..>..>

so much for laying low

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31 Jan 2007

tristeza y una nueva esperanza

Vasantrao:

“I often felt like weeping at what I read- stories of misery, caste violence, government callousness, official arrogance, police brutality. I’m certain many of us felt that way and an emotional outburst would be quite normal. ‘But too long a sacrifice can make a stone of the heart’… I think that sometimes normal behavior has to be suppressed, in order to carry on.”

Maneck:

“I’m not sure, said Maneck. ‘wouldn’t it be better to respond honestly instead of hiding it? Maybe if everyone in the country was angry or upset, it might change things’”

Vasantrao:

Just try to imagine six hundred million ragging, howling sobering humans. Everyone in the country… all losing control of themselves. What a catastrophe… Chaos. Complete chaos… Scientists haven’t done any research on the effects of mass hysteria and mass suicide upon the environment… If a butterfly’s wings can create atmospheric disturbances halfway round the world, who knows what might happen in our case. Storms? Cyclones? Tidal waves? What about the land mass, would it quake in empathy? Would the mountains explode? What about rivers, would the tears from twelve hundred million eyes cause them to rise and flood?… No, it’s too dangerous. Better to carry on in the usual way.

Maneck:

“… you speak so differently. Almost like a poet.”

Vasantrao:

“… You have to maintain a fine balance between hope and despair…. By the way, my name is Vasantrao Valmik, and he held out his hand.”

-a fine balance

In this internal place of speed, movement and travel created by the external, physical and tangible realities of the present, I am reminded of the conversation between doug and I beneath “the big tree” of Yuesceran. We lamented the tension of such a beautiful world filled with such intense brokenness and apathy… and now as I sit in this wintery place of caffeine-scented familiarity, I maintain a fine balance between hope and despair.

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promise

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if i look up and the sky’s not there,
is there any reason i should be scared
but a promise, is a promise…

i know.

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28 Jan 2007

otra ves…

¨every child brings in to the world a new beginning of life, and grows into the dawning fullness of life to come… A society which presses its children into the existing patterns of the adult world is robbing itself of its own future. With every child something new comes into the world, and from these renewals of life we can expect something for the hoped-for kingdom of peace and fullfilled life… the child is the eternal messiah who returns again and again among fallen men and women, in order to lead us into the kingdom of heaven¨

-jurgen moltmann
in the end – the beginning

another quick post from honduras.

after yesterdays post, lauren doug and I spent some time at the mythical ¨big tree¨ in yusceran and went to an incredible little resteraunt overlooking the mountains. we talked about hope and despair in such a time and place… discouraging and beautiful, they were the conversations that make life worth living.

the next morning, an older gentleman on our team talked about an arrogant young man (obviously speaking of himself) Who thought he could overcome anything. He consequently joined the marines and went to Vietam… He told us how he could push through everything that he saw.. but the one thing that he couldn´t live with was the faces of the children. he talked about trying to close his eyes to what he had done, but he inadvertantly had closed his heart. Then he spoke of this trip to Montana de luz as a time of healing, a time of active repentance, as he spent time loving our children 35 years later. He is now speaking of peace.

they will lead us to the kingdom of heaven…

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27 Jan 2007

yuscaron..

there are few things more healing in all of the world than getting out of a pickup truck and being greated with a chorus of “felipe!” by a mob of excited children… kevin hobbeling over and greeting me with a hug whispering.. “mi amigo..”

and of course, marlon. As happy as he was to see me.. I´m pretty sure that my excitement had him beat.

Im back in yuscaron.. the last time I was here I was pretty sure that I would live here. Oddly enough, when lauren and I were wandering around asking for the internet… we were mistakenly taken for a married couple looking for a place to live that HAD internet access. So… we just went with it..

We were given a tour and found a place that I would LOVE to live in.. high ceilings, spacious rooms, wood fired stove in the backyard.. and a garden that adam and eve would have envied.

hmmmmmm… oh so tempting.

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23 Jan 2007

outie

To the folks i haven’t seen, and the conversations I haven’t had, and the loose ends left undone, I appologize. I’ve been a little blindsided by the past week and on top of that I have a trip to honduras that I hadn’t exactly planned on and have been rushing around trying to prepare for.

Please send me a note, if I haven’t replied to your email, call, myspace message, voicemail, etc. I’ll get back to you sometime after Febuary 12th.

I’ll be keeping myself busy down there with classic russian literature (following dougs lead), more berry poetry, and ‘a fine balance’ (purchased for me by vicki) and of course listening to plenty of woody guthry and amos lee..

I hope to see you soon.

“…Heaven is calling
The new world is falling
and i can sympothize…”

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22 Jan 2007

beauty

Beauty is a fearful and terrible thing. Fearful because it’s undefineable, and it cannot be defined, because God gave us only riddles. Here the shores converge, here all contradictions live together. So terribly many mysteries! Too many riddles oppress man on earth. Solve them if you can without getting your feet wet. Beauty! … The terrible thing is that beauty is not only fearful but also mysterious. Here the devil is struggling with God, and the battlefield is the human heart.

– Mitya, the brothers karamazov
Fyodor Dostoevsky

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22 Jan 2007

they laid Jesus Christ in His grave

an unplanned trip to honduras… I’ll be leaving wen. early in the a.m.

So i’m a little stuck in Ironton.. not such a bad thing. In a newly cleaned basement, Kyle and I put on some tunes, cracked open the most oily lookin’, thickly drippin’, jon arbuckle(garfield) style thick coffee oozing, bottle of stout, smoked honduran cigars and played chess. Kyle says “I’m going to open a cigar and chess bar down here and call it church”. I laughed. We shared our pains.. had honest conversation.. laughed a little.. and had a damn good time. The evening hit a climax when woody guthrie snuck up on me and hit me the face with the gospel.

I also got a chance to watch the meyers struggle through what it means to love the loveless.. to talk openly about fear.. to attempt to give hope to folks without it. The hints of conversation that pointed to the possibilty of being with them and working with them, gave me hope.. I am imagining futures worth looking forward to.

so in a few days I will join doug, molly, blake and lauren and hope for more of the same inbreaking visions of the kingdom of God. I will attempt to sort through, and not run from a life of fear, doubt, and dishonesty and go deeper into love, trust, and truth.

p.s. I’m not gay.. i only changd it to that to lighten the shock of those who suddenly see my status as single. It was meant to make you laugh. Oh.. and as a tip.. if you change it to gay, you loose all of those “True” advertisements containing pictures of all of those ladies who are anything but.

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19 Jan 2007

praying drunk

man.. talk about a rough day. but this made it better:

My friend posted this poem as a “poem for people who don’t like poetry”

Praying Drunk

by Andrew Hudgins

Our Father who art in heaven, I am drunk.
Again. Red wine. For which I offer thanks.
I ought to start with praise, but praise
comes hard to me. I stutter. Did I tell you
about the woman, whom I taught, in bed,
this prayer? It starts with praise; the simple form
keeps things in order. I hear from her sometimes.
Do you? And after love, when I was hungry,
I said, Make me something to eat. She yelled,
Poof! You’re a casserole! – and laughed so hard
she fell out of bed. Take care of her.

Next, confession – the dreary part. At night
deer drift from the dark woods and eat my garden.
They’re like enormous rats on stilts except,
of course, they’re beautiful. But why? What makes
them beautiful? I haven’t shot one yet.
I might. When I was twelve I’d ride my bike
out to the dump and shoot the rats. It’s hard
to kill your rats, our Father. You have to use
a hollow point and hit them solidly.
A leg is not enough. The rat won’t pause.
Yeep! Yeep! it screams, and scrabbles, three-legged, back
into the trash, and I would feel a little bad
to kill something that wants to live
more savagely than I do, even if
it’s just a rat. My garden’s vanishing.
Perhaps I’ll plant more beans, though that
might mean more beautiful and hungry deer.
Who knows?
I’m sorry for the times I’ve driven
home past a black, enormous, twilight ridge.
Crested with mist it looked like a giant wave
about to break and sweep across the valley,
and in my loneliness and fear I’ve thought,
O let it come and wash the whole world clean.
Forgive me. This is my favorite sin: despair-
whose love I celebrate with wine and prayer.

Our Father, thank you for all the birds and trees,
that nature stuff. I’m grateful for good health,
food, air, some laughs, and all the other things I’ve never had to do
without. I have confused myself. I’m glad
there’s not a rattrap large enough for deer.
While at the zoo last week, I sat and wept
when I saw one elephant insert his trunk
into another’s ass, pull out a lump,
and whip it back and forth impatiently
to free the goodies hidden in the lump.
I could have let it mean most anything,
but I was stunned again at just how little
we ask for in our lives. Don’t look! Don’t look!
Two young nuns tried to herd their giggling
schoolkids away. Line up, they called, Let’s go
and watch the monkeys in the monkey house.
I laughed and got a dirty look. Dear Lord,
we lurch from metaphor to metaphor,
which is -let it be so- a form of praying.

I’m usually asleep by now -the time
for supplication. Requests. As if I’d stayed
up late and called the radio and asked
they play a sentimental song. Embarrassed.
I want a lot of money and a woman.
And, also, I want vanishing cream. You know-
a character like Popeye rubs it on
and disappears. Although you see right through him,
he’s there. He chuckles, stumbles into things,
and smoke that’s clearly visible escapes
from his invisible pipe. It make me think,
sometimes, of you. What makes me think of me
is the poor jerk who wanders out on air
and then looks down. Below his feet, he sees
eternity, and suddenly his shoes
no longer work on nothingness, and down
he goes. As I fall past, remember me.

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17 Jan 2007

i thought he wanted to kill me.

It is creepy as hell for me to read those posts from earlier today. That was aweful..(read: awe-filled)

It is so hard to deal with the fact that I had no idea what to do even when it turned out exactly as I had expected.

I was completely powerless. Unskilled. Ignorant.

Tonight I have lost all innocent and sentimental notions that the cross will ever be simple. Sometimes I wish I could have those notions back. I wish I could close my eyes, be blind, dumb.. and happy.

addiction.. death.. rage… in the face of these things.. can we truly ask:
How could I have loved more completely? More honestly? More openly? More sacrificially? Certainly it is the truthful persuit of these questions that will constitute nights like this as peace-making. because.. in reality.. i’m so tempted by my ability to speak anger.. frustration.. accusation.

Is it possible to overcome the feeling of self-preservation that seems to overwhelm you when you are in danger. Is it truly possible to love and not fear?

I feel like I have tried. And I think that I have failed.

It will be very interesting to try again.

Excuse me while I let the older gentleman at the bottom of the page sing to me over and over again until I fall asleep.

Peace on my friends and enemies this night, and everynight.

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16 Jan 2007

conversation with jeremy

[12:04] jerpifer: What about the catholic worker house?
[12:04] fillstorer: I’ve emailed..
[12:04] fillstorer: no response as of yet
[12:05] jerpifer: I’ll keep thinking
[12:05] fillstorer: cool
[12:05] jerpifer: if you need me there at 10:30 i’ll be there
[12:05] fillstorer: cool. good to know.
[12:09] fillstorer: i hope thats a backup plan.. I’m really hoping we can come up with a good solution of finding him a place for the evening.. and then looking into how to find permenant residences for these guys
[12:11] jerpifer: I agree but it the guy is dangerous we aren’t exactly well equipped to handle it
[12:11] fillstorer: no.. were not. but he has only lashed out verbally when provoked..
[12:12] fillstorer: so i dunno.. i think we are and we aren’t… sustained training around the table, should be letting us know we are joining christ in his death as well as resurrection which in turn should tell us we’re equiped to handle just about anything..
[12:12] fillstorer: its kind of a rubber meets the road kind of thing.. i just hope that if i go down.. i’m not going down alone :)
[12:12] jerpifer: provoked? Sounded more like he lashed out when you were being honest… dont get me wrong, I’d be pissed about sleeping in the cold too
[12:13] jerpifer: your not going down alone that for sure, I hope we can help him
[12:13] fillstorer: although if i have to go down ( and i do ) i hope this is what it looks like
[12:14] jerpifer: HA! Amen
[12:14] fillstorer: you said amen.
[12:14] fillstorer: dork.
[12:14] fillstorer: :)
[12:14] jerpifer: shut up
[12:15] fillstorer: I’m posting this whole conversation on my blog
[12:15] jerpifer: what is your blog… I thought you shut it down?
[12:15] fillstorer: ha!
[12:15] fillstorer: myspace bitches
[12:15] jerpifer: oh and you’re caling me a dork

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17 Jan 2007

frustated

again.. beyond the obvious..

last night.. tim got a little obstinate. this morning he his language got pretty violent. its making me nervous.. but more than nervous.. its frustrating. i think this would be a lot less difficult if i was living in community with folks.. i definitely can’t do this alone.

i guess i have a pretty good intellectual understanding of how love and fear are opposites.. and how the hope of bodily resurrection allows us to truly love (i.e. self sacrafice) in the sense that we live without fear of loosing our own lives. but fleshing that out is pretty freakin scary.

so.. all that to say.. if there are any dudes out there in the c-bus area who are reading this and look real tough but would be willing to do nothing more than pray with me while we got the shit kicked out of us… I’d be interested in having you stay the night tonight.

odly enough, i think that video i posted yesterday is a pretty big deal in all of this… it has a johny cash “hurt” feeling to it.. I have a pretty big fear of growing old.. i also can’t wait for it. I guess it all hangs on how well I’ve loved in the life I’ve lived.. I know I’m going to look back at life and realize how short it was no matter if I’m killed in my 20s or I decay in my 70s. That video just makes you stare at the fragility of life.. makes me ask the bigger quesitons.. makes me deal with what is important. I guess thats the definition of good art in my mind.

“if i can love just one, it won’t be for nothing”

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16 Jan 2007

When you try your best, but you don’t succeed…

what a weird couple of days…
beyond the obvious.. I’ll tell you about it.

so my apartment has become the only homeless shelter in the short north. Last night, Tim, a new guy, came over.. and since opening my house to people without homes.. this was the first time I really wanted to say.. “look pal, i know its cold, but im having a bad night.. this is the first time i’ve met you.. come back some other time.” But I didn’t. But there was a time today that I wished I would have.

More of the story…

The landlord of my building (real crazy that we still use the word “landlord” isn’t it?) pulls me out of the office. (my office is in the same building as my apartment) The landlord says that they noticed an african american man come into my apartment and they wanted to inform me that if someone was living there that it would be a violation of my lease. I politely told them that no one was living there, but a friend does stay with me, somewhat sporadically, a few nights a week. They asked me how I knew him.. and it went downhill from there.

Long story short, I ended up giving them a lecture (I never know when to shutup) on hospitality, inequality, open/unlocked doors, etc.. They in turn gave me a lecture on the reason we pay taxes, and wanted to give me a few names of churches that could possibly help. I wanted to tell them that I’d be willing to give them my name as a church. But this time I realized it was time to be quiet.

They told me they were going to require me to lock my doors until I reminded them that that wasn’t part of my lease.

Again, lonnnnngg conversation.. but long story short..

We came to a compromise.. They told me that they own apartments that folks can live in for free who are low income, elderly, or disabled. It just so happens that Raymond (the fella living with me) would most likely qualify. I told them that if they work on subleasing my apartment in order to get me out of their hair and allow raymond to apply for residence, I will lock my door.

So its a bummer that my door is locked until they find me a new place, but it may just end up getting raymond a place of his own.

So.. while the hard work of peace, reconciliation, and justice is a constant struggle.. and a continual game of discerning the Spririt of when to speak and when to be silent..

and when it seems to be a losing battle, continue, despite all appearances to the contrary, to proclaim that that kingdom of God is alive and well.

It’s coming.. hold onto your butts.

if that isn’t enough to convince you.. maybe this will.

i think if my life had a soundtrack right now.. this is what would be playing.

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15 Jan 2007

good reading…

http://www.catholicanarchy.org/cavanaugh/

including, but limited to:

“When Enough is Enough: Why God’s abundant life won’t fit in a shopping cart, and other mysteries of consumerism “

“Dying for the eucharist or being killed by it? Romero’s challenge to first-world Christians”

“Killing for the Telephone Company: Why the Nation-State is Not the Keeper of the Common Good”

if that is too heavy.. you should read this:

Suggestions
for a Proposed
National Code of
Health Emoticons
and Abbreviations for
Instant Messenger.


- – - -

?AB? alcoholic blackout

SHOT shot

AR allergic reaction

IJOD I just overdosed

STD STD

B3D burn, third degree

HA heart attack

ROTFC rolling on the floor choking

RFLOTL renal failure likely owing to lifestyle

====> stabbed or hit by an arrow

BOBHCS being overcome by hazardous chemical spill

PSND poisoned

SBKBPWMS slowly being killed by parent with Munchausen syndrome

MPOS Munchausen parent over shoulder

X
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dead
X

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a sad, cold, and rainy morning

yesteday i was in a funk and I thought maybe a morning off with some coffee and a book would cheer me up. i walked to the coffee shop and on the way, i found this.

I’m sorry. We’ll miss you zetas.

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09 Jan 2007

readings on raising children, politics, and peace

on raising children
…Never let someone say, “we don’t want our education to be indoctrination.” Of course Christians want their education to be indoctrination, and of course it’s going to make the students unhappy. How can one be happy in a world of such violence? Christians are going to make people feel guilty, but let’s hope it’s about the right things. We live in a hard, harsh world. We’ve just finished killing a lot of poeple in the Persian Gulf. That’s real. That’s not joking…

…What we do when we educate kids to be happy and self-fulfilled is to absolutely ruin them. Parents should say to their kids, “what you want out of life is not happiness but to be part of a worthy adventure. You want to have something worth dying for.” It’s awful when all we have to live for is ourselves; that’s what the Gospel reveals to us. The good News tells of the adventure that humans have been made part of through God’s grace, through Christ and through the church…

on peace making:
“… If we believe one of our brothers or sisters has wronged us, we are to confront him or her. People think that pacifists believe in avoiding conflict, but actually pacifists attempt to enhance conflict because they really believe in something, namely, peace.

Christians need to speak the truth about what is right and wrong and good and evil in our society. They need to establish a context where they can have real disputes with others. The conflicts will hurt and not everyone will always be happy with the results; but at least people will be talking about things that really matter.”

“non-violent Christians are not a minority if you recognize that most Christians, because they were women, were not allowed to fight. That this was perhaps “nonvoluntary” makes it no less significant.”

On politics:

…Jesus’s death was a political death. If you ask one of the crucial theological questions – Why was Jesus killed? – the answer isn’t “because God wants us to love one another.” Why in the hell would anyone kill Jesus for that? That’s stupid. It’s not even interesting. Why did Jesus get killed? Because he challenged the powers that be.

all quotes by stanley hauerwas.

now.. if you’ll excuse me.. I’ll be spending some time with the newly released martin luther king documents.. you can too.. here:

http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/01/09/mlk.papers/index.html

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angry and efficient.

Well.. i have obviously failed miserably in attempting to avoid the blog world.. so if you’re going to do it.. you may as well do it right.

if you think that you MUST read blogs. at least don’t be an idiot about it. go to: http://www.bloglines.com

enter in your favorite blogs as “feeds” and let bloglines keep track of what blogs have been updated. You will then spend less time in front of your computer and more time cooking for me. i mean.. talking to me.

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08 Jan 2007

a beard

I have come to the sad realization that there are some people who will never know what it feels like to have a beard.. i mean.. not just how it feels on your face and how it keeps you warm in blustery winter months.. but how it makes you feel on the inside.. the kind of manliness it provides.. so.. I’ve decided to try and help give you an idea.

Having a beard makes you feel like you are wearing one of these:
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while riding one of these:

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with these strapped to your back:

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yeah.. no kidding.

oh.. and as a contest.. if you can take this shiznit into photoshop.. and somehow place me on that motorcycle, with that helmet on my head.. and those axes on my back.. You will definitly win my respect.

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07 Jan 2007

forgot one

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if i lived in boston, you could probably take this picture of me on any day of a given week. but i don’t, so this is all you get.

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06 Jan 2007

i went to boston and it looked like this

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28 Dec 2006

todo list

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29 Dec 2006

so be it

“May God bless us with discomfort at easy answers, half-truths,
and superficial relationships,
so that we may live deep within our hearts.

May God bless us with anger at injustice, oppression, and
exploitation of people,
so that we may work for justice, freedom and peace.

May God bless us with tears to shed for those who suffer from
pain, rejection, starvation and war,
so that we may reach out our hands to comfort them and turn
their pain into joy.

And may God bless us with enough foolishness to believe that
we can make a difference in this world,
so that we can do what others claim cannot be done.”

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27 Dec 2006

christmas stuff

christmas eve I had dinner with brandon and missy and went hiking with brandon..
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christmas day I woke up sick.. but i spent the morning with grandma and the evening with kelly and family.

oh.. and..
lipring… merry christmas to me.

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22 Dec 2006

happy birthday..

No one can celebrate a genuine Christmas without being truly poor.
The self-sufficient, the proud, those who, because they have
everything, look down on others, those who have no need
even of God – for them there will be no Christmas.
Only the poor, the hungry, those who need someone
to come on their behalf, will have that someone.
That someone is God. Emmanuel. God-with-us.
Without poverty of spirit there can be no abundance of God.

– Oscar Romero

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21 Dec 2006

culture shock

sometime near the end of my trip i began to realize how hard it would be to come home…

I knew that the facing the poor and the sick would be encountering the face of God.. and how the prophets would talk about how encountering God would cause holy fear. And had I had begun to get a taste of that previously by encountering the homeless in columbus… but i don’t think anything could have prepared me for the onslaught of pure exposure that I would encounter down there. I think I’m in hell. There is something that torments me about being impure… being exposed to my own level of bullshit… of being implicated and dare I say judged. There is something awful about it… but at the same time, I crave it.. I need it to continue to change me.. to push me deeper.

prove yourselves doers of the word, and not merely hearers who delude themselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks at his natural face in a mirror;for once he has looked at himself and gone away, he has immediately forgotten what kind of person he was.
But one who looks intently at the perfect law, the law of liberty, and abides by it, not having become a forgetful hearer but an effectual doer, this man will be blessed in what he does.

I’ve reengaged with scripture for the first time in awhile.. that ^ is from james…
it is reading completely differently these days.. it seems to say all this stuff that I didn’t realize that it said. Part of me was really nervous about reengaging with the bible.. because if it really said all the stuff that I had been taught that it said… i was nervous about having to loose my faith… again.

Anyone who sets himself up as “religious” by talking a good game is self-deceived. This kind of religion is hot air and only hot air. Real religion, the kind that passes muster before God the Father, is this: Reach out to the homeless and loveless in their plight, and guard against corruption from the godless world.

thats from james too.

its crazy how this text has been doing the same thing that those villages did. I kinda hoped it would give me words.. or language to begin to process all of it.. but instead its just kicking my ass even harder. and that is only the tip of the iceburg.. wait till it starts talking about your savings accounts being the fodder for the flames that will eat your flesh.

yeah.. that’s in there. sounds crazy right? but any crazier than having extra room in your house while people sleep in the streets? any crazier than having 5 meals worth of calories in our chinese take out while millions of people starve..

i really should stop. james also says..

If anyone thinks himself to be religious, and yet does not bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this man’s religion is worthless.

oh.. and..

everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak and slow to anger; for the anger of man does not achieve the righteousness of God.

I’ll need patience and prayer from those who care.. because I’m not just angry.. I’m raging pissed.

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surprise…

attention curiosity seekers and myspace junkies:

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yeah.. i know.. you’re not surprised

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19 Dec 2006

When we were young…

We were dreamers

When dreamt of love and peaceful things

When we were young we saw with hopeful eyes

When we were young we were free

…the kingdom now you used to promise

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we’ll find a way you swore to me…

lets save the world you gently whispered

let’s save them all we used to dream

if you’ll seek the dream is living

tonight… the dream it is living

a whisper.. rising like the tides

Hallelujah.

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